Kagaz Ki Kashthi Luv tht Sacrifices Life Part 47

Kagaz Ki Kashthi Luv tht Sacrifices Life

Part 47

Maan entered the room with shaky legs… the sight just torn his heart, geet clutching mahika close to her heart and crying her eyes out,, she was looking at her every feature like she had not seen her for ages… she kissed her whole face numerous time and then kissed her small cubby palm, her foot.. her forehead… tears were not stopping today…. The sound of maan’s approaching feet make her turn his way and instantly the fear spread her face… she clutches mahika close to her chest and shivering with the thought maan will take her away….

Maan slowly took his step towards her,, only he knew what his heart is feeling right this moment,, geet’s trust that was a reason for living, he had destroyed the trust with his own hand…

Maan: geet,, he whisper…. But her words just tear his heart making it bleed…

Geet looked at him with tears: please maan don’t take her,, I m sorry. I m really sorry maan, I promise I will not talk to anyone,, but please forgive me,,, I will do anything but please don’t take her away from me, I can’t live without her.. I will die maan…

She cried bitterly shattering his heart in to million pieces….

He speedily reached her bed and held her arm,, but she just moved back a little,, he looked at her shocked.. she is not willing to trust him so easily,, he never thought his one act can go so extent…

Maan: I m Sorry, he whisper finally breaking down….  Tears spilled from his eyes,, geet stares at him for some moment,, he touches her face with his palm… i never wanted to separate our baby from u jaan… I made a mistake, but I was angry, u know ur maan mishty, ur maan can’t live without u or our angel… he touches mahika but geet’s grip got tighten around her… he looked at her with pain, but she just looked feared…

Geet: trust me, I know my responsibility, I will not let anyone touch her, trust me please, don’t take her from me maan.. she said in a chocked voice.. maan was blank and then pained to see the damage he did…

Maan: I trust u geet,, I really trust u jaan…. Please forget everything….

She looked at him blankly: u r not angry with me?

Maan instantly cupped her face: no mishty, I m not jaan.. I can never be angry on u… it was my mistake to treat u like that, I was blind in my rage,, I will never do this again… please forget everything…

His voice was hoarse and pain was definitely visible but geet didn’t feel the pain,, in front of her motherhood she forget everything…

Geet: can u tell me how to forget the pain I felt in this 7 days,,, I m trying but nothing is coming… can u take the pain away I felt 7 days 7 night? She said in a cold tone that actually shivered maan… he had never saw geet like that…  kisna asan hain na sab maan,, whenever u want u gave her to me, whenever u want u can take away from me,, its always ur decision, forget everything, was it so easy to forget?

Maan: geet, I

Geet:  sometime I feel m I anything to u other than mother of ur child… Maan tried to suppress the tear that was blurring his vision but strangely there was no tear in her eyes… did u ever love me maan or it was my illusion that u created to protect ur baby…

A wife can take any wrath of her husband and she will not flinch also but taking away a child from her mother is the biggest sin anyone can commit… a mother can never forgive a person who try to separate her child from her….

Maan whole world become numb…. He never thought geet will feel something like that, was this 7 days was so big against his one yr love… the thing he forgot their relation had based on their child only,, otherwise maybe there was nothing at 1st… and this time geet is feeling a mother heart not a lover Point of view….

Maan saw her numb state,, he wanted to hold her hug her to console her but he can see some kind of barrier she is creating around her…

Maan: geet trust me jaan… I loved u and that not because u r the mother of my child, its beyond my explanation.. please don’t take this 7 days over our love…

Geet looked at his eyes straightly: when u were taking her away from me in ur rage,, when I was begging for ur love that time u didn’t remember our love maan,, u were blind in ur rage, was I made so big mistake that u punished me like that,, and will u punish me like this for the entire life? Isse accha to aap mujhe tabhi mar jaane dete jab 1st time arjun said they can only save either me or mahika… then u don’t have to share ur baby with me also…

Maan: Geeettttttttttttt,,, he roared and she shiver holding mahika going backwards… he closed his eyes in pain…

Geet: I m sorry,, don’t take her,, she whisper…. He closed his eyes and rushed out from the room…

Maan: what have I done with my own hand… I m so sorry mishty.. please come back to me… he cried sinking outside of the privet room…. The biggest businessman is crying leaning on a floor for his fate…. That called destiny… but we write our destiny with our own hand,, I guess in this matter its really true….

Doctors informed Maan he can take geet with him only after 3 days observation… its being 2 days still geet didn’t came out from her shell,, the incident literally shook her life and now only blankness is there,,, it led her to depression,, dadima stopped talking to maan but rest of the family members were still confuse what to think, they knew how much maan loved geet,, then what went wrong… on the other hand maan is just breaking every min… geet’s coldness is unbearable for him now.. he tried a lot to talk to her but she just moved away from the place… he couldn’t even show his frustration because whenever he tried to took out his pain she got afraid and clutched mahika to her…. in these 3 days she only interact with mahika, no one else… she can’t be the old bubbly geet anymore,, she is afraid of something.. dadima cursed herself and maan for making geet’s life like that but she knew only maan can take out from her state… meera stopped talking with maan,, she just couldn’t bear the pain geet is going through.. sometime she n jay stood silently outside her room watching her looking at mahika..meera often cried and jay only supports her letting her cry on his shoulder… sujal was out of the country so he didn’t knew anything…. and no one told him also so that he can at least live in little pieace…

Aniee and arjun’s relation was also suffering in this,, arjun just closed himself from everyone, he just can’t swallow the thing that maan can do this to geet… but he knew if maan is the reason for her state then only he can take her out from this depression… being a brother he doesn’t wanted maan near his dear sister… but being a doctor he knew only he has the power or rather say geet had given the power to him that he can take her out from the state….

In the evening geet got discharged from the hospital…. Nikita did the arti and aniee help her to go to her room,, maan just followed her to see whether she is ok or not…. She had maintained her distance to maan… all these days he had craved from her one look but she is just blank… only caring for her baby….

Aniee took leave as both entered their room,, all maan can see aloofness and fear in her face… he had tried to talk to her but she just held mahika close to her,, some part of him is tormenting in it, still can’t do anything….. he just silently watched her moving in their room slowly,, her pace was very slow and when he tried to take her in his arm she backed off fearing he may take her baby from her,, he closed his eyes feeling miserable,, seeing so detachment from his love, made him vulnerable…

he saw her slowly placing mahika on the bed and sat beside her, her face was blank, no emotion was there except her motherly love… he never thought she had been going through so much… he had seen mahika crying but never guessed she was missing the warmth of her mother… he often came to the room when geet was sleeping to check her whether she is ok or not but never realize his aloofness can never be good for her… though she was sleeping everytime but he failed to see the sleeping pills she was taking all the days..

he cried seeing her cradle like a ball but protectively holding her baby with her arms,, she is just staring at the joy of bundle like she is seeing her for the 1st time,, his harshness just shook her whole existence..

maan came close to them sitting beside mahika,, geet looked at him with straight face..

Maan handed a towel to geet: go and freshen up, he said in a low and affectionate tone.. but geet didn’t moved… maan tried to held her hand but she snapped…. she touched mahika with her arms… maan closed his eyes and took a deep breath.. he walked her side and slowly lift her in his arm… he can see the fear again in her eyes but he can’t let her drown in to darkness again…

She clutches his shirt as he makes their way to the washroom… geet looked away from her still holding his neck…

He smiles sadly… but he had chosen this for himself only… he quietly made her stand on her feet…. She looked at him blankly….

He took her dupatta away from her neck… he noticed her facial expression.. on other days if he did so, her face showed the color of love,, her blushing face appeared in his mind but it shattered when he saw now, she just looked away nothing else…. He pulls her close holding her waist.. but it didn’t effect her at all…

Maan remembered arjun’s word that he said few hours back…

‘ Don’t know I m doing the right thing to give her responsibility to u AGAIN,, but please don’t do anything again that u and I regret later… she is in very delicate position now,, though as a brother I don’t want u near her at all but as doctor I know its u who can bring my old geet back… maan looked at him with regret,, arjun continued.. and please don’t push her again, its all because of u she is now blank, u have to fill the place again like u did few month before….

Maan: I promised arjun, I will bring her back,, for that if it necessary to split my heart again n again I m ready for that also….’

Maan saw her curious eyes,, he brought his face close to her face and kissed her forehead…

Maan: u need to change… geet didn’t budge… he sighed and took his hand to unzip her kurti from back still holding her in his arm closely…

The dress comes down from her arms,,, she didn’t react at all…. Maan’s hand touches her back,, up her spine still she just looked away… the dress fell on the ground… his throat went dry to see her half naked beauty but his heart cried to see there is no movement,, she just mechanically let him doing what he want… somehow he controlled himself and slipped her salwar from her silky slender legs… he again scooped her in his arms and placed her in the bath tub,, and then undressed himself to join her…. his hard chest touched her velvety back…. she closed her eyes as his hand massaged her body slowly sensually… no matter whatever it is but still she felt a current in her body… she closed her eyes and leaned over him… he can feel her relaxation under his magic…. He lowered himself and kissed her earlobe…

Maan: I m missing my geet… he whisper and she shivered with it…. her whole body is wet still she can feel something wet on her shoulder.. slowly she turned to see maan’s teary eyes…. She tried to touch his cheeks near his lips, her eyes were tracing the tear… he kissed her fingers…. Can I anyway get her back, please? His voice was chocked… after so many days she actually felt pain.. she was blank for so many days hours but when his tears touched her skin she felt melting in his arms….

She stares at his eyes only trying find her place in it, though she can see it clearly still her mind didn’t gave permission to think openly… but still somewhere her heart is recognizing his pain… its knows how it bleed to see her pain… she held his face in her one palm,, maan was feeling over the moon to feel her affectionate touch, he knew his geet can never be mad at him.. but then in fraction of second everything just changed,, her affectionate face turned pale….

A flash of past came in front of her remembering his words be with ur frnd then, don’t u dare come close to me again…’ his words rang in her mind and she withdraw her hand pulling herself away from him…. he held her wrist…

Maan: please geet don’t go away from me,, his voice was pleading… she can feel his pain, but still her heart just blocked everything… please mishty, come out from ur shell… punish me,, hit me, shout at me but don’t behave like this… don’t behave so cold with me jaan, I can’t live without u…. geet come back to me, come back to ur maan… I m sorry for every word I said, I m sorry for everything I did,, but forgive me… I can’t live without u….

Geet watched his remorseful face: I said the same thing maan, but u went away from me, now I couldn’t find all the pieces of my heart so that it can take u there, now the place is too short for anyone…

Maan whimper: Geet…

Geet turned again: I need time, she slowly whisper… she turn to go but hear his whisper

Maan: I will wait for u eternity…

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Maan is seeing her for quite a long time,, its being 2 days she had came to the house still there is reserve,, no one can find why she is still so detach to everyone, all thought she is angry with maan but there is no anger in her any more… she is just trying to fix her heart that had been torment in those 7 days,, she had been feeling so alone in those days that now its become impossible to fix it… yes she had deprive everyone to know her sorrow on her own,, she had closed herself and in 7 days she had died 7 lacks time…

‘Geet’ maan called her but all he can see her moving from the place… he held her hand that is cold now, she didn’t tried to remove it but just standing there like a dead body which had no heart beat… he slowly turned her and tried to search something but all is blank, her eyes had lost the shine in it,,, her eyes that only showed love and longing replaced by fear and unknown distance…

he tried to touch her face rubbing her cheeks with his thumbs but she walked away leaving him feel the remorse, the damage he had done in his anger…. tears spilled out from his eyes as she saw mahika staring at him with her big doe shape eyes and smiling….. he saw geet,, she was just lifeless… she lost her smile her reason for live only because of him… he leaned on the wall feeling miserable to see her like that…

He turned the light off and slipped beside mahika, he wanted to hold geet in his arms but she had made a barrier in between them… sleep was far away from his eyes, when he heard a whimper… he turned to see geet moaning n crying in sleep.. he switches on the dim light and saw tears coming out from her eyes.. she is moaning in pain….

Maan panicked: geet… he called her in panic still she just cried in pain… she tried to wake her holding her cheeks between his palm… geet uttho geet,, geet jaan please wake up,, and then he saw she is awake, it just some pain.. he saw her clutching her breast and then he saw the wetness on it… he instantly lift her up and then took mahika who was by now crying…

He saw her painful eyes that is only watching mahika… he placed mahika on her hand and she pulls her kurti up to give her breast to latch mahika… mahika was full, she slept but the pain was nowhere to gone.. geet clutches maan hand and whimper…

Tears clouded in his eyes to see his love in pain… not finding anything he called dadima… but no one hear him.. he made her lie on the bed and rushes to call dadima…

Dadima heard his voice and ran to their room…

Dadima: what happen maan…

Maan: dadima wo geet… dadima immediately ran to see a mourning geet…

Dadima: maan I will see her…

Dadima understood her pain and then brought a bottle of mahika’s feeding after few precaution,, she knew it can happen and then geet poured the bottle feeling relax a bit…. Maan only watched all from outside…

Precap: Maan and Shiv Fight…

Flash of past,

I know some of u wanted to reunion of maaneet but its impossible right now, u can see she had gone  through a lot,, so she need time to understand his pain… and I saw few are thinking geet is making fuss over it,, she is at fault so whatever maan did maybe was big but still she is now making a big thing about it,, but dearies maybe u can’t understand a mother’s pain.. ask ur mother the same situation, she can explain u better,, a wife can forgive her husband for numerous act but a mother can’t forgive or forget so easily…

And the pain of geet with her breast feeding was my imagination so sorry if I went wrong or hurt anyone, please give some writer liberty

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3 responses to this post.

  1. hi really nyc concept …..wanna knw whats between shiv n maan …………hope maaneet jaldi se patch up karlien … 🙂
    cont. soon 🙂

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  2. i didn’t lik every treatin maan lik tat… geet behaviour is okay but other i cann’t understand bcoz he s angry frm shiv i can say wen every 1 kno maan hates shiv den its clear its not tat geet talked to shiv is botherin him he is botherin tat wat if shiv harms them or geet… in this he had hurt geet… even though i’m not supporting his treatment but wen its comes to maan i expect beyond limits either its love or hate or protectiveness….

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  3. n 1 more thing dekho maan kitni koshish karta hai use manane ki wapis normal laane ki…. sirf yehi nai wo hamesha jab geet ruthi hai wo tab tak manata hai jab geet maana nai jati…

    aur yaha i observe jab geet janati thi wo gussa hai toh dar ke apne aap ko room lock karne ke bajaye usse maan ke paas jana tha use manana tha… 1 baar muh modta ya 2 bar ya max 3 bar usse jyada wo usse naraz ho hi nai sakta i bet…

    aur haan galati arjun ki bhi hai jab geet use mili thi toh usne maan ko cal karke as doctor geet ki health ki enquiri karta aur use yaad dilwata ke geet ko baby ko feed karna kitna jaruri hai bas sab kuch thik ho jata… jab arjun itna nai kar sakta toh use koi haq nai banata ke wo hamare maan ko kuch bhi kahe…

    hai na????

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